Six

Yesterday was a bad sleepy tired fatigue day for me. I slept most of it. Then last night, even though I felt very sleepy, could NOT sleep till about four in the morning. My husband asks me every day before he leaves for work, what am I going to do today? It's difficult to hear that question, because it really makes me feel guilty that I cannot do much at all. He wishes I would engage in life again. I wish I could too. But the way he says it, makes it seem like I have a choice in the matter. I don't. I live day by day with what I can do. And mostly that involves sleeping, and being on the computer. When I am awake, but too fatigued to do anything. I lay on the couch, under a blanket, my mouse under  the blanket too. I can just scroll, and click on this or that. That is my life right now, and I accept it, because I have to. Fighting it only makes my fatigue and sleepiness worse. I haven't given up, I have just learned to live within what I can, I suppose.