Four

I am sorry I haven't been on. I started this project with the intent of doing this most days, however given the severity of my disease, it's not always possible to get on. I have been sleeping more often than not for a few weeks now. Not always sure why. If I have a sleepless night, I understand sleeping the day away. But when I can sleep all night, and most of the day, it's a bit unsettling. Today went like this. I woke up at 10:00 am, ate a bowl of oatmeal. I felt like I had a bit of energy this morning. So I walked down the stairs and out the back to see how my plants are doing. Surprised to see my watermelon are growing big. That's exciting to me. I came back inside after my short walk, and kissed Scott goodbye. I then just lounged on the couch, and surfed online. I eventually fell asleep about one. I woke back up at 3:30 pm, opened the back door for the dogs to go out, and went to the bathroom myself. Then I ate for lunch a bowl of cereal, Life to be exact. After I lounged again, looking online. I must have fallen back asleep, I woke up at 7:00 pm. I was having a rather bothersome dream about a cousin of mine, trying to kill me. So I was rather sweaty upon awaking. Now it's almost nine here, and I am still surfing online. It's all I can do for the most part. I am tired, still. And in some pain. Sometimes my pain is so much that I wish I could stop existing. I don't cry, haven't been able to in quite some time.I don't know why, but I think that I can't let it out, adds to my pain.  Anyways, that is all for now.